Just those few weeks

A poem by Susan Erling

For those few weeks -

I had you to myself.

And that seems too short a time

to be changed so profoundly.

 

In those few weeks -

I came to know you...

and to love you.

You came to trust me with your life.

Oh, what a life I had planned for you!

 

Just those few weeks -

When I lost you,

I lost a lifetime of hopes,

plans, dreams, and aspirations.

A slice of my future simply vanished overnight.

 

Just those few weeks -

It wasn't enough time to convince others

how special and important you were.

How odd, a truly unique person has recently died

and no one is mourning the passing.

 

Just a mere few weeks -

And no "normal" person would cry

all night over a tiny, unfinished baby,

or get depressed and withdrawn day after endless day.

No one would, so why am I?

 

You were just those few weeks, my Little One.

You darted in and out of life too quickly.

But it seems that's all the time you needed to make my life so much richer

and give me a small glimpse of eternity.

 

Well we found out the end of February we were expecting another little angle. It was kind of a shock, I had just got of bc to start trying in January. We of course were thrilled, and I have been going through all the normal beginning stages of pregnancy, very tired, hating food yet starving all the time..... all that fun stuff!

I was concerned about 4 weeks ago when I had a OB appt. and she didnt hear the heartbeat, but she said since I was only around 10 weeks that sometimes the way the baby was positioned you wouldn't be able to hear it. I left the doctor that day confused, but trusting my doctor. Then last week I began having some bleeding, I called the doctor and they scheduled an ultrasound for the next morning. When we went in last Thursday April 16th, they could not find our babies hearbeat. Needless to say, John and I have been pretty devastated. We know that our sweet baby is in its heavenly fathers arms, and that does help. We also know that everything happens for a reason, I have to believe this sweet baby is much better off. I do not know how people go through things like this without a strong faith in God. He is my peace in this storm, and I know that when the time is right He will give us another wonderfully precious baby. 

 Please keep us in your prayers.